“If you are making mistakes, that means you are working.”
Yesterday at work, this thought random erupted in my volcanic brain, while I was working on something new, and I was totally frustrated with my repetitive mistakes. But being a positive brain, even the most searing lava came so chilled out with an awesome thought. Well, yesterday I made mistakes but today I love them and thank them for giving me an opportunity to learn and; last but not the least gifting me this amazing thought.
Couldn’t resist sharing it with you all. 😝 And that’s me at work yesterday..☺️😆
Monica woke up exactly 2 minutes before the scheduled time for the alarm. And to her surprise, this happened every morning. How her sleep was synchronised with the alarm for the next morning. She felt lazy for a while, and stared at the darkness of the room, which was infiltrated by a thin white morning light. That made her realise that it was time to leave the bed, and get into action.
She was almost back to her normal self from yesterday’s eventful day. Her sleep definitely helped her overcome the tremor that Max had caused by coming back in her life. She knew it very well, it wasn’t easy to let go. But she had made up her mind to be firm and unyielding, and to not let her thoughts sway in the direction that was owned and ruled by Max. As she turned with affirmation, she noticed her tired husband stepping out of the study. It seemed he didn’t sleep last night.
“Were you working the whole night”, she asked Robert.
“Yeah, I had few things to wind up”, Robert answered promptly. “I am taking the day off, and we could go out together”, he added.
A wife in this case would be normally delighted, but Monica could sense suspicion. Robert would never take a day off, even though he hadn’t slept since a week. Apart from being a great father and an amazing partner, he was a workaholic. She knew it very well.
“What’s wrong?” Monica enquired in surprise.
Robert tried to answer casually, “Just like that. Can’t I spend some quality time with my beautiful wife?” He tried to appease Monica’s eagerness and on the other hand tried to sound normal. But inside, he knew how disoriented he was. Not even a single second went by, where he had not thought about Max last night. He didn’t know how bad it was going to be, but it was back again. So, he needed sometime with Monica, to see her and observe her, before he called the psychiatrist. Well till then, he had to behave relaxed, as if nothing had changed. And this was going to be a challenge, as inside his heart ached and his eyes longed to shed the pain, which was not permissible.
Robert suggested to drop Neel to the kindergarten, and asked Monica to be ready by then. “Let’s begin our day with breakfast at your favourite baker”, he exclaimed with feigned joy. He left with a heavy heart, and drove his son Neel to the kindergarten, who was too excited, as his dad was dropping him to kindergarten unlike every day. Neel kept talking the whole way, and Robert managed to smile and mutter “hmm”, while his mind was completely lost in the thoughts of the upcoming days. The only thing he could think of was calling Monica’s sister Julia.
That gave him the strength, and he made the call immediately. The tears rolled down his cheeks, as Julia picked up the call. He uttered, “Max is back in our lives. I thought it all ended last time, but he is back.”
On the other hand Julia was paralyzed, as she heard that name. She gathered herself and her strength as well, and said, “You don’t worry. Everything will be fine. I will be there by evening, and we will figure this out together”.
He right away said, “No! Just let it be. Let it all appear normal. Your sudden arrival will make it worse, just like the last time. I saw the doubt in Monica’s eyes, when I took the day off. I will stay with her the whole day, and keep filling you in.”
“Okay”, said Julia realising that Robert was right.
“Well, now I need to rush back home. She is waiting for me. Will talk to you later.” Said Robert and hung up. This small talk had given him immense strength to fight with the current situation. He drove back home thinking about that dreadful incident that took away his best friend, Max forever from their lives.
– Anushree Dutta
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Morning was always the best time of the day for Monica. She adored the fresh smell of the flowers in her garden, and the melody of the birds chattering in a group, just like a group of teenagers meeting after long and carelessly chitchatting and giggling. But she never had thought that this morning was not going to be the usual one. It was about to bring a tremendous change in her well settled life, in her cozy little house with the most beautiful and loving family.
After finishing her morning chores, she left for the supermarket. It was the usual music playing, while she was driving, and she just thought to stop by the new store that she wanted to visit since almost a month now. Many times she planned it with Tina, her best friend but somehow it never worked out. So this time she didn’t think twice, and entered the store with curiosity. It was a huge boutique with the most fashionable dresses and accessories, with breathtaking prices. “Oh! That’s expensive”, she thought, that suddenly a husky voice that uttered ‘Moni’ interrupted her thoughts. ‘Moni’, she wondered, as this could be only Max, the spoiled brat from her college, whom she dated and it didn’t end so well.
She didn’t feel like turning back and facing him. Infact she felt, if somehow magically she could just disappear. But why was her heart thumping so loud as if ‘she was a teenager who suddenly bumped into her crush,’ she unknowingly smiled after thinking.
All these thoughts clouded her head so bad that she didn’t realize that Max was standing right infront of her. Yes, in person, looking the same, didn’t even change by a single inch. “Hi Moni”, he jumped with joy and embraced her in delight. “Look at you, you look the same, so beautiful”, he expressed his joy.
Monica very well knew how good was Max at lying and handling even the worst situations with ease. “She was definitely not beautiful today”, she thought and tried to comb her untidy hair with hands. For a moment she was speechless and couldn’t think of what to say. Suddenly realizing how rude it would appear, she cleared her throat and meekly asked, “Hi Max, how have you been?”
“I am doing great”, he sounded exactly how he felt. “It’s so great to see you. You made my day. Why don’t you join me for coffee?”, he insisted. Before Monica could deny, he called for help and ordered two coffees. It was so typical of Max, he would always do what he wanted. “Come let’s go to my cabin, we can talk in peace there. I have so much to tell you”. Monica kept wondering, how could he be so normal? How could he forget everything that happened. Even though she didn’t want to talk to him ever in her life, she followed him helplessly like a little girl. He opened the door for her like a gentleman and escorted her to his richly designed office, with some finest furnishings she had ever witnessed in her entire life.
The door shut after them, and they began to talk. It was mostly Max talking and Monica just mesmerized by everything around her including Max.
When you are dreaming, dream like a child and dream a lot. Because a child can dream without boundaries, his thoughts can explore even those nook and corners of imagination, which adults restrict or hesitate to do. Because we are scared, we are under a constant pressure of people judging us. And it is imbibed so deeply in our sub-conscious that we get scared to even daydream freely, and we most of the time stint on this unbelievable wealth we possess.
Because dreaming liberates you, let’s you think beyond imagination which in return adds a beautiful smile on your face, increases your heart beat for may be a few seconds and moreover, gives you a new and fresh perspective. May be you could bring one of those lamest thoughts to reality, and to your surprise it is no more lame, instead it is applauded widely. But it could only be possible when you give it a thought, when you commanded your brain to let go. And think without limits, widen the horizon of the imagination, and wander with it without any direction. Just like when you release a piece of paper in air, it flows with the wind. Without knowing where it has to go, without knowing the distance it has to travel or without the knowledge of its destination. So be that piece of paper and liberate yourself in the wind of thoughts and imagination. As we all know for any achievement, we need to have a dream first, only then can we realize it and make it a success.
Just a year back, on 22.07.2016, Munich (Germany) was shattered by a horrific incident and the peace and harmony of the city was ruined. Many innocent lives were lost to yet another incident, where hatred won over love, vengeance won over forgiveness, and violence won over peace. But there is always hope, and with this hope we all survive every day in love and happiness. This is my attempt to remember all those who lost their lives, with a heavy heart and teary eyes. Nevertheless, I will always hope for peace and prosperity to prevail in the World.